Mysterious Journey

by Claire
(Philippines)

Hello Sara,

I am 35 years old separated from three years ago but not legally yet unfortunately we didn't have a child considering that we were together for six years. My ex-husband left me alone and I tried very hard to continue my life..alone. After which I have heard that he has already been living with another woman and they will be having their child.

On the third year of our separation,I met a man with the same story as mine,they had a son who stayed with his wife. To cut the story short, we got along together and accidentally I got pregnant. At first I was really confuse and afraid because me and my husband are not yet legally separated, same is true with the guy I have been dating and impregnated me. Now, I resigned from my job because I know that this is a very delicate issue, I might get fired. The father of my child would want us to stay together although my family disagreed because we are both considered "married" yet. So, I decided to stay with my family while I am pregnant.

The guy gives support but very minimal for he also has his son from his ex-wife. I am so worried and anxious what will happen to my life and my baby's life soon after I gave birth. Things are really complicated now. I feel I am nothing as in ZERO. I got my college degree, wasn't able to continue to post-grad because of the situation and have no job. But happy also that I have a baby, because I had two miscarriages from my ex-husband before,that's why I resigned to finally have a healthy pregnancy, however pregnancy without a father is the saddest part of it. I am on my 6th month now,still anxiety, fear of the future, regrets, haunt me. Though I believe that every child is a blessing, I am just so sad that I have a child with this kind of so complicated life...I badly need you advise please.